It is all ok

looks like I can still get on the same flight over as Malou without having to pay twice as much. If that falls through (I don't think it will), I can get tickets on Qantas for only 15hundred. Which just happens to be 100dollars more than the flights I was originally going to get. Ive started filling out my visa form and I will give the consulate a ring tomorrow to sort out a time I can go to see them. Started to look at travel insurance today, with my membership discount SouthernCross looks like the best option for me, but I will keep looking just in-case something cheaper crops up.
I have been sorting out my things, what I want to keep and what I will sell. there seems to be a large amount of books on the keep pile that will have to be addressed next time I go traveling. for now into storage they go. It is amazing the amount of useless junk I have accumulated, all these things not worth selling but they could be useful so I don't seem to want to chuck them out.
I am going to sorely miss my cameras when I have to let them. I limited myself to 5 cameras including my digital, all my beautiful old gorgeous cameras are to be sold, along with various other junk. the only other thing on my sell list I will miss is this wonderful computer I am using now.
My emotions are so different to what they were this morning, my panic, and fear has been replaced with a sense of peace, a knowledge that everything will work out just right. It always does.